Whats a girl to do?

SO I am thinking about going back to school. Well its not school school but its still classes 5 days a week. So I still call that school. If I do this I wont have a life anymore. (Sorry Ashley you will think I have fallen off the earth and you have lost your BF) But, dont worry its only for 8 weeks. Ok so here is the reason I am thinking about going back.

For the ones of you who do not know me I have SMA that is a form of Muscular Dystrophy. I was diagnosed when I was 2 1/2. I have been in a wheelchair all my life. One of the things that SMA does is it causes weakness in the arms and legs. My whole life I remember at times people telling me that I couldnt do this and I couldnt do that. I believed them b/c I had heard it all my life. My Senior year of high school this guy came to see about giving me a scholarship to go to college. He took one look at my grades and told me that I wasnt good enough to go to college and that I needed to go to a tech school. He said all this b/c of ONE C and that was in Spanish. So once again I was put down. That time I told myself that I was going to the University and I was going to show this guy that I could do it and I did. I graduated 2 years ago with a degree in Early Childhood Education. Working with kids is a passion of mine. I love anything that has to do with children. I wanted to b/c a teacher to show kids that you can do anything if you set your mind out to do so. I wanted to show them that just b/c they might have something different about them, they were still human and could do anything. I wanted to be that positive influence that they might not have had.

I started my job hunt and didnt have any luck at all. I heard the same thing over and over. "We dont have anything open right now but I will keep you resume in a file." I have never been given a chance to show people what I can do, they just see my chair and not a person in a chair. They take one look at me and thats all it takes to get turned down. I had head that it was going to be hard to find a job and I knew that I just didnt know it was going to be this hard. I had an interview set up and then the day of the interview I get an email saying they had already filled the position. I think the lady put 2 and 2 together and figure out who I was. It wasnt until this year that I got to thinking maybe I need a different path. So this is why I am thinking about going back to school. Maybe if I can do something computer related in an office then I will have a better chance of getting a job.

I am torn between the two. Im not sure what to do. The other day in church I was thinking about it and was like I just need to pray about it and be open and see where I am lead. Well that same night I heard this Hallmark movie was going to be on TV. I didnt know what it was call or what it was about. I just always like an of the Hallmark movies. The movie was called Front of the Class. This is what the movie was about:

The movie is based on the true story of Brad Cohen, a young man diagnosed with Tourette Syndrome who defies the odds to become a teacher.

When Brad was growing up, teachers and other adults — even his father — interpreted Brad’s involuntary sounds and sudden jerking movements as attempts to get attention or simply acting up. He was ridiculed and teased by other kids. As a result, he hated school…until a principal learned his “acting up” was a result of Tourette’s. The principal used an all-school assembly to educate the faculty and students, which helped Brad win their understanding and acceptance.

That convinced Brad that he should be “the teacher he never had.” Brad had interviews with 24 schools in the Atlanta area that had teacher vacancies, but no one was willing to take a chance on him, despite an impressive college record and glowing recommendations. But he would not give up. On his 25th interview, he was offered a job as a 2nd grade teacher.

Brad’s openness about Tourette’s, his easy-going manner and gentle humor quickly won over his young students. In addition to the traditional curriculum, the students learned valuable lessons in tolerance and acceptance of differences. At the end of the year Brad was named the outstanding first year teacher for the state of Georgia.

As I watched that movie I could relate to what he was going through and seeing how hard it was for him to get a job. I have been there and knew how he was feeling. Im not sure if that was the sign I was needed. I dont know if that was GOD saying hey dont give up you are called to teach. So I sit here tonight still torn not knowing for sure what I am suppose to do. I know that even if I dont choose to teach. I needed to see that movie. I know I am not alone, I just wish that more people were more open minded than they are.

You know I think about this a lot, if the shoe was on the other foot would they still feel the same way or would they have a different out look on things?

WHATS A GIRL TO DO????????