Im excited but a little nervous.

So, my brother and I dont talk that much. We see each other everyday but usually dont say two words to each other. Well today that wasnt the case. He was in a very good mood which doesnt happen that often. I was working on a necklace and he call my mom to see if I still made them. I dont do it all the time, just when I dont have anything else to do. Mom told him that I did. Well he has a lot of connections so he made a phone call to see if I could get in at this store and sell my stuff. He called his friend that works at Lewis and Clark. It a pretty big outdoors store in my town. So I am going by tomorrow to talk to the lady to see what we can work out. I am excited about it b/c lots of people go to this store but I am nervous b/c they stuff I make isnt they type of stuff that you would usually find in this store. I am going to try and work on some different things that are more they style of the store. More on this later if it happens.

You just have to make me cry dont you?

So like I told you in a few posts ago my father is just like his mother. She likes to visit us more than she should. She came to visit last night (this being my dad b/c he acts just like her, so when he is in his moods I always says that his mother is here to visit.) I dont know how often she hurt him when he was a child. I know it was a lot but I dont know if it was once a week, more than once a week, or less than a week. I dont know and I havent asked.

So I got a new car and I made another payment on it yesterday. Well I knew my dad was getting a big check for one of his clients. It is for the same amount that I still owe on my car. Well just joking around I told him when he got the check he could give it to me so I could pay my car off. How was I to know that was the wrong thing to say? This is when his mother stopped in. He went off on me and was like why dont I take that check and pay blah blah blah that we owe and I dont know how im going to get it all paid back. I told him I was just kidding when I said that and he was like well I am just giving you a dose of reality. So I start crying b/c he is so mean to me. I really do think its his goal to make me cry at least once a week. I dont think a week goes by that I dont cry with him being mean to me. That is one thing that I hope my brother doesnt pick up from him with his own kids. I really dont understand why people say Im not going to treat my kids like that b/c of what they have went through and 9 times out of 10 they do. I HATE THAT HE ACTS LIKE HIS MOTHER AND TREATS ME LIKE CRAP. I HATE THAT HE WAS TREATED BAD AS A CHILD AND NOW I AM HAVING TO PAY FOR IT.

Christmas

So, I am back!! I am still alive for the whole one person that I know reads this. I dont feel like making this post extra long so I am going to do a few post tonight. So this Christmas we got to say at home. The first time is 24 years that we havent gone to my Grandma's house. They got to come up here this year. This Christmas was a lot of firsts for everyone. As I mentioned we usually go to my Grandma's so we never put a Christmas tree up b/c were never home. Well that all changed this year.

This is my first Christmas tree in about 16 years. So I was pretty excited.

My brother and his family always swap holidays between her parents and our family. This year they got to spend Christmas with us! It was extra special b/c it was my niece's first Christmas. She is only 5 months old so she didnt know what was going on but it was still fun.

She got a little lost in all the gifts! Overall My Christmas was good. I think it was pretty hard for my Grandma to come to our house this year. When it was all over she told us that next year we are going back to her house. This didnt seem like Christmas to her. That is only b/c she is stuck in her ways and doesnt like change. She has had Christmas in her house for 45 years. We will see what we do. I already said that I liked it better here. We have a whole year to think about all that.

Funny dont you think?

I THINK SO

Christmas time and friends!!

So today I exchanged Christmas gifts with two of my friends. From one friend I got a visor clip and a car air freshener. These were to go with my new car, that is if it ever gets out of the shop. From my other friend I got a BIG book that has 500 different scrapbook page layouts! This is going to take a while to look at. Then she also made me a friends scrapbook!!

I only have pictures of what I got one of my friends. I didnt take a picture of the other gift. So I was looking at some other blogs and I came across this one and this lady made this scrapbook board. Well I knew ash didnt scrapbook but i thought she could still use it. This is what the ladys
looked like.

This is what the one looks like that I made.

This was the other gift that I made for Ash. Its a 12x12 canvas and I painted it and then put our picture on it. The bottom part of the picture says "God made us best friends b/c mom couldnt handle us as sisters"

the last 24 hours

So my last 24 hours havent been the best. I got really sick last night and had a BIG episode with my numbness and migraines. This was the WORST one I have ever had. I was just thinking that its been a long while since I had one of these spells. Well I guess I spoke too soon cause it hit me like a ton of bricks. I got home from church feeling fine and I went to read this book and I noticed that my vision was starting to go a little so I knew what was fixing to happen. Usually when I have these I usually just have the side affects and not the headache. Well this time I had it all. I have some pills and usually I take one and I feel lots better but this time I had to take 3. I woke up in the middle of the night balling b/c it hurt so bad. I still feel like crap this morning and still have a few side affects from it.



So this morning I had a meeting with this guy yo get signed up for classes for this spring semester. As I mentioned in other post I am in a wheelchair and have been in one all my life. So I go in for my meeting and it was the most awkward situation I have EVEN been in. I go in and as soon as the guy sees that I am in a wheelchair he gets this look on his face. So I go on in and he is saying nothing to me. He pulls the chair out from the table so I could get up to it and still isnt saying anything. SO he just stands there and then he goes we havent met before have we. So I am filling out some paper work and he asked if I had always been in a wheelchair or if something happened and I got hurt some how. I tell him that I have always been in a chair. He response was im sorry. I ignored it like I didnt even hear him say that. So we move on and start talking about payment. I tell his that I have scholarship and that it should be a problem b/c they paid for my school when I was going to the University. He said are they paying b/c of that? I said b/c of what? He said your chair. Im think YOUR REALLY STARTING TO PISS ME OFF. This guy is in his late 50 he should know how to go about asking people questions. How the heck do some people get higher up positions when they are that ignorant??? So I had a lovely 24 hours and its still going good!!

It is the little things that count.

You hear that often, that its the little things that count. I do believe that but it took me awhile to realize that. I love it when people make my day. I love smiling from ear to ear just when people say Hi and ask how things are going. Sure, I would love a big fancy gift but it wouldnt mean as much as that Hi how are you, tell me about your day. Tonight one of my really good friends made my night. Just seeing them put a smile on my face. I love moments like these.

ETSY Shop.

So I finally opened up my ETSY shop. I only have one thing in it right now. It might be awhile before I get other things in there. I have to wait till I get all my ebay stuff taken care of. But here is the web address. www.allysungail.etsy.com

Tampons

Well as I learned today tampons can serve more than one purpose. I saw this picture on someone elses site. Yep someone actually took tampons and made Christmas light out of them. I thought this was too funny and I had to share.

Crocheted baby hats with flowers

So I have an eBay store. Right now all I have in it is baby hair clips and bands. I have had it up for about a month now and I have sold a few things! BUT, I got my eBay bill and they charged me all these fees I didnt know about. So at the end of this month I am going to close it and open up an ETSY shop. I will let you know the web address once I get it up and going. Here is a look at something new I am adding to my shop.

This is a bracelet that I am thinking about adding to my store.

I have baby headbands and crocheted hats with big flowers in my store now. These things were a big hit and the craft fairs this year.

And here is my 4 month old Niece wearing this headband.

Another thing that was a hit at the craft fairs this year were the crocheted hats with the big flowers.

This is what they look like on a baby.

I have also made my niece some hair clips for Christmas. I have to say I think they turned out to be pretty cute. I just need to get a picture of her wearing them.

The Santa Hats!

The Christmas flower.

Well I hope you have enjoyed looking at all my Crafts. I will post and let you know when my esty shop is up and open.

Why are you like your parents?

WHY DO YOU TAKE ON THE BAD QUALITIES OF YOUR PARENTS??


You know when your growing up and you see your parents do something or treat you a certain way, you always so Im not going to do that when Im older. Usually we say were not going to do that but turns out that we do. Well growing up my father didnt have the best life. His mother was real abusive to him and his sister both physically and mentally. Those bad traits that she did come out in him every once in awhile. Today is one of those days. I just would like to disappear on days like this when his "mother" comes out in him. I sit here crying right now as I write this b/c I am upset that he act like this. I know what kind of weekend its going to be. It takes nothing to set him off. Its kind of like he has bipolar or something. Why cant we take the good from our parents and not the bad? It seems like we always take away the bad.

Selling our house

So I just got done watching the hills. I got to thinking that today was Thursday and I never did watch the hills on Monday. Im not sure what I was doing, but I wasnt watching the hills. So in this episode Lauren has to go home and pack up her room b/c her parents are moving. When she gets there to pack up all her stuff she realizes how many memories she has there. She said that she thought they would always have that house for the rest of their life b/c that was the plan. Well I just moved 9 months ago and before that the house that I moved out of was the house that I grew up in. I had lived there for 24 years. It wasnt that hard for me to leave that house behind. I was excited b/c I was moving into a bigger house. I looked at it as a new chapter in my life and that bigger and better things were to come. Well its just now starting to feel like a home. I know it takes awhile when you move to feel like your at home. Well I thought when we moved that this would be the last time that we would move. But, I am finding out now that, thats not the case. No where in the future are we moving but my dad in planning on it. He said that the reason he built this house is so in the far future he can sell it and retire. I didnt know any of this till a month ago and then just now he was talking about it again. I thought it was weird that he was talking about this right after I watched the hills. Now I feel the same way as Lauren. I am sad to think about leaving this place. I know that sounds crazy b/c I havent lived here that long but I was planning on making this house my home.

JOB UPDATE

So I have decided to go back to school. I start in Jan! I am excited b/c it will be something different than what I got my degree in. I really do hate to leave my passion for teaching behind but I feel like this is the direction that I need to go. So Long for now!

Feeling Blue!

Why is it when you have a few weeks of things going well then you get hit by a truck? This happens everytime. Right now I just feel like I am alone. I dont have anyone to talk to right now. I know they will all come back around but, it seems like when I need someone the most thats when they are not there. WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN? I saw one of my best friends tonight and I had so much to say but I didnt. I always feel like I have stuff going on in my life that 1) no one really cares about and 2) people usually have bigger problems than mine so I dont want them to know about my little things (even to me if they are big) I guess tonight is just one of them nights to go watch a sad movie so I can get all my crying out.

Whats a girl to do?

SO I am thinking about going back to school. Well its not school school but its still classes 5 days a week. So I still call that school. If I do this I wont have a life anymore. (Sorry Ashley you will think I have fallen off the earth and you have lost your BF) But, dont worry its only for 8 weeks. Ok so here is the reason I am thinking about going back.

For the ones of you who do not know me I have SMA that is a form of Muscular Dystrophy. I was diagnosed when I was 2 1/2. I have been in a wheelchair all my life. One of the things that SMA does is it causes weakness in the arms and legs. My whole life I remember at times people telling me that I couldnt do this and I couldnt do that. I believed them b/c I had heard it all my life. My Senior year of high school this guy came to see about giving me a scholarship to go to college. He took one look at my grades and told me that I wasnt good enough to go to college and that I needed to go to a tech school. He said all this b/c of ONE C and that was in Spanish. So once again I was put down. That time I told myself that I was going to the University and I was going to show this guy that I could do it and I did. I graduated 2 years ago with a degree in Early Childhood Education. Working with kids is a passion of mine. I love anything that has to do with children. I wanted to b/c a teacher to show kids that you can do anything if you set your mind out to do so. I wanted to show them that just b/c they might have something different about them, they were still human and could do anything. I wanted to be that positive influence that they might not have had.

I started my job hunt and didnt have any luck at all. I heard the same thing over and over. "We dont have anything open right now but I will keep you resume in a file." I have never been given a chance to show people what I can do, they just see my chair and not a person in a chair. They take one look at me and thats all it takes to get turned down. I had head that it was going to be hard to find a job and I knew that I just didnt know it was going to be this hard. I had an interview set up and then the day of the interview I get an email saying they had already filled the position. I think the lady put 2 and 2 together and figure out who I was. It wasnt until this year that I got to thinking maybe I need a different path. So this is why I am thinking about going back to school. Maybe if I can do something computer related in an office then I will have a better chance of getting a job.

I am torn between the two. Im not sure what to do. The other day in church I was thinking about it and was like I just need to pray about it and be open and see where I am lead. Well that same night I heard this Hallmark movie was going to be on TV. I didnt know what it was call or what it was about. I just always like an of the Hallmark movies. The movie was called Front of the Class. This is what the movie was about:

The movie is based on the true story of Brad Cohen, a young man diagnosed with Tourette Syndrome who defies the odds to become a teacher.

When Brad was growing up, teachers and other adults — even his father — interpreted Brad’s involuntary sounds and sudden jerking movements as attempts to get attention or simply acting up. He was ridiculed and teased by other kids. As a result, he hated school…until a principal learned his “acting up” was a result of Tourette’s. The principal used an all-school assembly to educate the faculty and students, which helped Brad win their understanding and acceptance.

That convinced Brad that he should be “the teacher he never had.” Brad had interviews with 24 schools in the Atlanta area that had teacher vacancies, but no one was willing to take a chance on him, despite an impressive college record and glowing recommendations. But he would not give up. On his 25th interview, he was offered a job as a 2nd grade teacher.

Brad’s openness about Tourette’s, his easy-going manner and gentle humor quickly won over his young students. In addition to the traditional curriculum, the students learned valuable lessons in tolerance and acceptance of differences. At the end of the year Brad was named the outstanding first year teacher for the state of Georgia.

As I watched that movie I could relate to what he was going through and seeing how hard it was for him to get a job. I have been there and knew how he was feeling. Im not sure if that was the sign I was needed. I dont know if that was GOD saying hey dont give up you are called to teach. So I sit here tonight still torn not knowing for sure what I am suppose to do. I know that even if I dont choose to teach. I needed to see that movie. I know I am not alone, I just wish that more people were more open minded than they are.

You know I think about this a lot, if the shoe was on the other foot would they still feel the same way or would they have a different out look on things?

WHATS A GIRL TO DO????????

Stuff that cracked me up!

Man this weekend sure did go by in a flash. I hate it when it seems like Friday was just last night. I usually hate waking up on a Monday and haveing to start the week all over again. But, enough about all the bad. Its now time for the good. This weekend was a fun weekend. I spent 3 days with my best friend Ashley. I told her that by the end of the weekend we would be sick of each other and ready to kill one another. Luckly that didnt happen. I think we just got a little crazier each night. Do you know people who just say randome thing and you are like where did that come from? Well Ashley is that type of person. The things she says I have NEVER heard before and I have no clue where she gets them. Here are a few of her "says" that cracked me up this weekend.

"Odor in the court"
"Splenters in the windmills of your mind"
"Your pilot light blew out"
"Your bridge doesnt go all the way over the creek" (this one I have heard before but I think its the only one)
"Sprung a leak in your dingy"
"Inherit the wind" and last but not lease
"If you sprinkle when you tinkle be a sweetie and wipe the seatie" So there you have it, radome saying for my bestie.

Have any of you heard any of these before? Feel free to me know ones you have heard of.

I have a 4 month old niece and she spent the night with us this weekend. She is now to the point that she laughs at things. Here is a video of her laughing. She doesnt really start laughing real good till towards the end of the video. She is laughing at the Dog.

I guess I will end with this video. Hope you week is a good one.