Drama

I know its been a long while. I have like one person that I know of that reads this. She doesnt read it hardly at all anymore. So its hard for me to keep it updated.

My life is full of Drama right now. Isnt it funny how you can do things the same way for a long while then all of a sudden they become an issue. Thats what I am going through right now.

My best friend has a new boyfriend. So now I pretty much have to schedule time to talk to her. I wish there was a balance between the two but there isnt. I am the one that is having to sacrifice in this situation. I guess the had thing for me is friends are so important to me so I couldnt see doing that to my friends. Why cant you have the best of both worlds? I just keep telling myself that someday it will be like it was, but then again that day may be too late.

Then another issue that I am having is my best guy friend seems to be getting lots of attention from my other friendships. It seems like everyone is getting jealous of my friendship with him and would rather see me tell him to him the road. THATS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. I have never felt more alone than I have the last few days. I was talking to his wife about this and she keeps telling me not to worry about it. She told me that he isnt going anywhere and that I mean too much to him for that to happen. She told me that I couldnt ask for a better best friend. I told her I dont get it. I dont get why all of a sudden he is an issue. I was friends with him last year and they year before. So why now?? Why within the last few months??

I know God has a purpose for my life and all of this going on. I just dont know what it is. I have been waiting. I just wish all the Drama would be over.