I am loved

I AM LOVED!!! I am loved and it took me awhile to figure that out. I have been going to church my whole life and have always heard that every time you feel like your alone your always have one person that you can always talk to. Someone that is never going to leave you and someone who always knows when something is wrong without you even having to tell them whats going on. That is true and thats hard a times to remember to lean on him when times do get hard. I know I am loved in that regard but I know I am also loved with my friends. I know that I have friends that truly love me. I knew this but I didnt really know this till this past weekend. I went over to a friends house for dinner. One thing that I do is pay attention to the smallest things that no one else would get. Well I am always telling him how I am freezing. I am ALWAYS cold. I freeze in the middle of July. So when we go to eat dinner, his wife asked him if they had to have the fire going and he said he did that just for me b/c I am always cold. When he said that, that made my night. I was like aw you do listen to me. So then we go to eat dinner and were sitting down and I look at where my plate it and I usually always use a straw. I look down and there was a straw next to my plate. I was like you even got me a straw (talking to his wife) she was like no he actually did that. I know those were two small things but to me they were big. I was like I am so loved. I was thinking to myself who else would have paid that much attention to me and knew what I needed.

So then the feeling loved didnt stop a few days after at the office, everyone went to get lunch and they brought it back well this one guy in the office was getting my stuff out and he just starts helping me. He opened the stuff that I needed without me having to ask. I know people care about me and like to help me out but I have really felt it the last few weeks. I love having that someone who makes me feel like I am loved. You know how they say its the small things in life? Well it really is the small things in life.

Start paying attention to the small things in life and see how it makes you feel loved.

Prayer for a friend

Lord I lift my friend to You.
I've done all that I know to do.
I lift my friend, to You.
Complicated circumstances
have clouded his view.
Lord I lift my friend up to You.


I fear that I won’t have the words
that he needs to hear.
I pray for Your wisdom , oh God.
And a heart that's sincere.
And Lord I lift my friend up
to You.


Lord I lift my friend to You.
My best friend in the
world, I know he means much
more to You.
I want so much to help him, but
this is something he has to do.
Lord I lift my friend up to You.


There's a way that seems so right to him.
But You know where that leads.
He's becoming a puppet of the world.
Too blind to see the strings.
And Lord I lift my friend up to You.
Lord I lift my friend to You.


I've done all that I know to do.
I lift my friend, to You.

You never let go

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death Your perfect love is casting out fear And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life I won't turn back I know you are near

And I will fear no evil For my God is with me And if my God is with me Whom then shall I fear? Whom then shall I fear?

(Chorus:) Oh no, You never let go Through the calm and through the storm Oh no, You never let go In every high and every low Oh no, You never let go Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on A glorious light beyond all compare And there will be an end to these troubles But until that day comes We'll live to know You here on the earth

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on And there will be an end to these troubles But until that day comes Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

Good News I hope!

So If all goes well I should get my van on Wednesday. This has been a LONG road with everything breaking and the long time it took for everything. Chad is planning on coming up on Jan 30th so I should be able to drive by myself by Feb!!! I know eveyone will be just as excited as me. They are just as sick of hearing about it as I am. Some other good news that come from this. The guy from Houston that does all the van equipments stuff got to talking to my dad about this lady that he is real good friends with that is in a wheelchair that lives in the same area that I do. The weird thing is years ago I met this lady in walmart. She works for walmart home office now. I think I met her when I was a freshmen or sophomore in College. I didnt keep her card or anything and not long ago I asked my mom if she remembered that lady's name. I was wishing I had kept her card. So this lady turned out to be the same lady I was wanting to get in touch with. It turns out that when Bill Clinton was in office she worked under him. I didnt know that till today. So I think things might be looking up for me. She is still working at walmart but she might be leaving soon when Obama gets in so I am going to have to get in touch with her soon.

The New Car and THE KEY

So My friend Ashley got a new car the other day. As you can see she got a BRIGHT yellow bug. Well she comes into the house and she was like look at my key its huge. So I showed her that you could fold it in half. She didnt know that till I showed her. So the rest of the day thats all she did. I know now to keep things to myself till she is ready to go. I think the video says it all.

I thought this picture was funny b/c she had just bought the car and it looks like she is for sale.

I couldnt get this video to rotate I dont know why but its still funny.

Church and My Father

SO today started off good so I thought. When I got to the office that all went downhill. As I told you in a few post before my father is like his mother. Well she came to visit today for no reason at all. This is what happened. Something happened and the books with the business and they got messed up. He told mom that he wasnt mad at her it was just a honest mistake. Well they were trying to figure out were it all messed up at. He asked mom like 5 times if you did something and she kept saying NO I DIDNT. So finally the last time I was tired of him asked and him not believing her I said No dad she didnt do that b/c I saw what she did. He said ok Miss Bitch. I know he only does that b/c he know that it hurt me and makes me cry. If only I could act like it doesnt bother me then I dont think that he would do it as much. I cant b/c Im just not that type of person. I think the thing that gets me the most is why would any father call their own child a bitch no matter how mad they were at them? The only thing that I can do about it is sit there and take it. He knows that and I know that. I guess its like I am his punching bag. The other thing about my father is he hardly EVER says that he is sorry for anything. Thats another thing that also hurts. I yelled at him after he called me that today. Im not saying I am sorry b/c I feel like I have nothing to say I am sorry for. I may be wrong about that but I am not the one that called myself a bitch. So my lovely dad turned to crap.

So tonight was the first night back to church from Christmas break. I didnt feel like going with everything that happened today. I always hear people say that they like being a church when they are hurting or having a bad day. When they are at church they forget about things going on. That is so true and tonight I found that out. I went in all in a bad mood still and as soon and I went in something happened and I started laughing and I forgot about my bad day. I guess its a good thing that this happened on a church day. I am thankful that I was brought up in church so I do have a place to turn to and people to turn to when things dont go well one day. I am still in a bad mood and sad about the things that happened but today made it a little better.

ETSY Shop has a few more new things.

So I finally added a few more things to my etsy shop http://allysungail.etsy.com I have lots more stuff to add I just havent gotten around to it. I dont know about you, but if you have ever posted anything on ebay or etsy or any other site like these it takes awhile to post one thing. I HATE POSTING. Thats why I never do anything. I hate trying to think of a title and then type up a description about the item. So thats why I havent gotten around to putting more stuff up. This is a clipboard picture frame that I made. Sorry this picture turned out a little blurry

This one as well as the next one are cutting board message holders.

Why do bad things happen to good people?

Why do bad things happen to good people? I know that a question that we have all asked at some point in time. I dont think we will ever understand why bad things happen to good people. Angie (the lady in the picture above) had been fighting cancer for about 4 years. She passes away Thursday night. We all knew the time was coming but were all still praying for a miracle. One of her sons and his wife were expecting their second baby and she was due in December. Everyone was praying that she could hold out to see that new baby. The baby was born a few days before Christmas and they traveled up to see her. Angie got to hold her new grand baby and then the next day is when thing got worse. Everyone knew she was just holding out till she got to meet her her baby.

Angie meant the world to a lot of people. She loved everyone and it didnt matter what you did or how badly you screwed up she loved you for who you were. I know she is in a much better place now and is back to her healthy self not having to suffer. When God took Angie he has one heck of an angel up there with him now.

I know this might sound weird but I had a dream last night about Angie. It was like she came to me in my dream. As I have said before Im not going to teach I am looking at other things to do. Well in my dream Angie was a teacher. Well God come to take her but she wouldnt go just yet. She found out that I wasnt going to teach. She said that she wasnt going to go till I promised her that I would teach. So I did and then he took her. I woke up and that was the weirdest thing. I dont know how to take that. I was fine when I found out she has passed until I had this dream.

I love and miss you Angie. I know you are up there watching over me and everyone else.